Bad Thoughts

This is bad. I can't picture myself anymore being a mom. In my mind, recently, I picture myself as a very busy career woman, driving her car alone, wearing expensive sunglasses, and holding the it-bag. Not as a mom, pushing baby trolley around, and busy to feed the kids.

Do I still have a faith that I can be a mother someday? I really wanna be a mom, have wonderful babies, but..since there's no sign till now, it just makes me..lil' bit hopeless.

Everything must have process in it. Everyone ask me to take it slow. They just don't know that, slowly, I begin to lose faith.